Break me!?

"He took the bread, blessed it, broke it, and gave it to the multitudes"
Oh yes, we want Jesus to take us, we want Him to bless us. And we pray it over and over again. Do I dear to complete the prayer? God, take me, bless me, BREAK me, mold me, and give me to the multitudes. Did you know that the word "brokenness" means to destroy, to crush, but also; give birth to... A ship that only goes through smooth water doesn't learn how to navigate. Sometimes God delivers us FROM the fire, sometimes He deliver us THROUGH the fire, and sometimes even BY the fire. But only He knows what is best for us, what will bring us closer to our Fathers heart.
Break me, Lord, if that brings me closer to You!

Is this the world we live in?

She is running for her life, she doesn't want to die. He's running after, not quite sure why. She is running faster, his gun is too heavy. Two hearts pumping, fear in four eyes, can't stop, can't rest, can't shout, can't cry...

Is this the world we live in? Is this reality? she is nine, he's eleven, they are people like you and me.

Just a little longer, soon she will be home. What if she knew that her house was burning and she was left alone. What is she knew what her eyes would see, what if she knew. What the soldiers had done to her family, oh little girl, don't see.

Is this the world we live in? is this reality? blood everywhere. they where people like you and me.

She is hiding in the jungle, she's not the only one. a bleeding man, a mother with her newborn son. When will they find her, when will she die? can someone tell her why? Running in the darkness night after night. In the daytime she's silent, nobody hears her cry. Where is the river, will she survive? or is there any point of staying alive?
She's walking down the street, she is free. but who will buy her tonight, is it you and me?

Is it anyone who sees? Is there anyone who cares? what does it mean to love my neighbor as I love myself? to cry out to God when i close my eyes and walk away? tomorrow i will act, but not today..

So many stories, so many lives, so many hearts that God has created and that He longs to fill with His love. In Him it's healing for yesterday, grace for today and hope for tomorrow. Only in Him there is freedom and true love. But how will they know if nobody shows them?

I'd never thought I would ever pet a living tiger...

God's thoughts are obviously higher than mine...

Thank You

Oh God, help me not to take for granted all the blessings You poor out to me every day. I have so much to be thankful for; The fifty smiling faces that meets me every morning, waiting to give me a big hug, and take some of my love. All the wonderful food, that will make me roll back to Norway. The beauty of digging and repairing toilets. Children shouting “thank you teacher” “yellow”. Catching fish by hand. Oranges, oranges and more oranges. Snakes. Clean drinking water. Cold showers to wake me up in the mornings. Good health. The ability to sing and play guitar. New friends. Many people receiving Jesus every day. Knew knowledge about food and practical work. Warm clothes. Norwegian melkesjokolade. Walking bare foot.

Thank you my Jesus

FISHING

Today (21.jan.09)I had one of the best days in my life. Pi Tom came to pick me up on his motorbike. We went to pi Pi’s house to eat lunch before meeting the rest of the boys at pi Gjå’s house. From there we went past villages, rice fields, palms, bamboo cabins, rivers, on a small road filled with red African soil, over bamboo bridges, past all kinds of animals, surrounded by beautiful nature, I felt like coming home. We stopped by the riverside and jumped into the water. We went down the stream, and tried to catch fishes with our hands. For maybe two hours I didn’t catch a single fish. But the boys were so excited that I wanted to join that it didn’t matter. They made me stick my arm into deep holes, and told me afterwards that there was either fish, snakes or crabs in the holes… They also picked all kinds of different things from the trees along the riverside, and gave me to eat. I told them to pray for me, that I would catch a fish, and suddenly I started to catch fishes every time I put my hands down in the brown water. I even managed to catch the long fish that was the hardest to catch. We were in the river all day long. I am just getting more and more amazed about God’s wonderful creation. What a creator! In the evening we went back to pi Gjå’s house to make dinner together. I had my first hot shower since I came to Thailand. We cocked, laughed, ate, sang together and told stories to each other. What a wonderful day. I have really got some good friends here in Fang, and it’s so sad we’re leaving to Chiang Mai on Saturday.

You have a Father that loves you

You’re smiling, playing around with the others

And I wonder, have you always been happy?

You see me, you run into my arms

And I wonder, have you ever felt love before?

Your face shines, but pain is in your eyes

And I wonder, what is your story?

You take my hand, and lead me to your mother

And I wonder, are you my brother?

What is your story, what is your name?

Show me your scars, your wounds, your pain

What have I done?

What didn’t I do?

Beautiful little one, you have a Father that loves you

You’re laughing, dancing in the sun

And I wonder, if your heart is cloudy

You’re scared, hiding your face in my lap

And I wonder, where does this fear come from?

You lift your head, you’re watching my face

And you wonder, does she really love me?

I’ m crying, you’re wiping my tears with your hand

And I wonder, will I ever understand?

What is your story, what is your name?

Show me your scars, your wounds, your pain

What have I done?

What didn’t I do?

Beautiful little one, you have a Father that loves you

Weeks have past. New adventures have taken place. Dogs have been eaten. Elephants have been rode. River boats have been taken. Wells have been digged. More chili have been swallowed. New life stories have been shared. New people have received Jesus. New revelations have been given. New steps have been taken. More love has been poured out in my heart.

I had to go to Thailand to understand that God is my everything. I need nothing or no one but Him, who is the only one who can please my deepest longings and inner needs. Thank You Father. I love You!