"..but greatest of all is love"

I thank God for each new day here in Guyana. He is so close, and He reveals Himselves for me in a new way every day, through all I see, hear, feel etc.. Sometimes I wonder if I have come to the garden og ede.. Canooing down one of the many rivers, surrounded by jungle, flocs of birds dressed in beautiful colors guiding the way. Knowing that poisonous snakes and crocodiles are hiding in the brown water. Singing to Jesus. Being amazed by the creator of all this beauty. But then I look behind all this, and I see the poverty, I see the men sitting all day long smoking marihuana, I see the old woman in the street with her life in a plastic bag, I see the orphans, I see the two small boys which was "left in the grass" by their mother. My heart breaks, and I realize that this is not garden of ede, this is a place with a lot of suffering...

...But it is also a place where there's big possibilities to make a difference. There's such a need for love, God's kind of love. And I find that's one of the main reasons why I am here. Every day I get the chance to give some love to people around me. Hug a child, listen to someone's story, go to the hospital, visit the sick, comfort a crying child, minister to a mother that has been sitting on a chair next to her sick child's bed - without sleeping or eating for a week, praying together with them, praying for God's healing and strength. I find that nothing gives me so much that being able to share God's love with someone.

Guyana is such a uniqe country, a mix of everything I've seen before. Villages like Thailand, rainforest, african markets, dalladalla, cows in the streets, african people, asian people, some few europeans, spicy food, sweet and juicy fruits, working horses, friendly people, rasta men who wants to marry me..
I'm starting to get used to the wild life inside the house which I'm living in. Frogs jumping out from the shower, coming up from the sink, sitting on the toilet seat, jumping over the table. Big beautiful butterflies flying around, fireflies lightening up the night, and so many different creatures I'd never seen before crawling all over; floor, roof, walls, bed.. After a week I look like a walking mosquito bite, but I'm still happy to be here, and really excited that I have so much time left!

Today I made had some interesting experiences. I went to a Guyanese church, which was quite a wonderful experience, so much passion for Jesus, and a big hunger for more of Him! In the afternoon we went on to a Hindu wedding just across the street. We got a lot of good and spicy food served in a huge leaf, crazy loud music, old women dancing, tradissions. Nice experiance, very different..

Thank God for who He is, and pray for my brothers in Tanzania that suffers from malaria.
Love

God is faithful

Friday night.. still no ticket from Mexico city to Georgetown, Guyana. Not even someone to drive me to the airport.. but once more I got to experience God's faithfulness, and help from people that loves me. I am so blessed. A few hours later I packed my stuff and left from Grimerud.. As I sat at Gardermoen, waiting, I suddenly realized that I had really no idea of what I'm heading on to. Maybe I am a bit crazy, after all, but my heart is filled with this amazing peace that surpasses all knowledge.

Paris.. too late for the next flight, too many people, running fast, but not fast enough. Praying that God will delay the flight. He did. I entered the plane in the very last minute. I got a seat next to this very nice Mecixan man, who were very willing to let me tell Him all about Jesus, hour after hour.. Joy.

Mexico city.. my connecting flight to Miami didn't leave until next morning, so I'd got to stay at the airport. God showed me this place away from the crowds of people, so I rolled out my sleeping bag and laid down on top of my giutar and my backpack..

Flying from Mexico city into this beautiful, beautiful sunrise. Flying in cercles over Miami.. Sleeping im Miami one night. Get to talk to a lot of nice people. Coffee at starbucks. Playing my guitar, and praising Jesus. Monday afternoon.. take off to Trinidad and Tobago. Flying over the Caribbean while the sunset is painting the heaven dark red. What a wonderful maker, what a mighty god, which is living inside of me.. Wow..

some more hours in Port of Spain before finally landing in Guyana late monday night. Kim(the leader of the YWAM base) warmly welcomed me at the airport, and we went on for one and a half hour drive to Parika, which is a small village outside of Georgetown.

This is my first day in Guyana. It's a BEAUTIFUL country, wilderness and rivers everywhere. The people that I stay with are just amazing. They all have powerful testemonies about God's faithfulness in their lives. I don't know why God brought me here, but I have big expectations for what He wants to teach me, show me, reveal for me, do through me while I'm here. I'm just so filled with joy and peace.

Thanks for praying for me. I can feel in my heart that you guys are really praying. Pray that I'll be a blessing and a smile to the people here. God is good, and He is always faithful.

GUYANA...

when I stop doing thins in my own strenght, when I choose to sit down at Jesus feet, just to be with HIM... when I seek Him more than seeking His gifts and blessings, seek His face instead of seeking His hands... when I realize that my main calling is not to do, to go, but to be... together with my Father... than suddenly doors just open...

Guyana, I'd never heard about the country before.. but it's there, south america, and God just opened a door for me there. so hopefully, in few days I'll be landing in Georgetown. I am going to stay at a ywam base there, and be a part of their work among the poor in the country. they have a lot of different minestry such as bush evangelism, children minestry, mercy minestry (visiting HIV/AIDS victims at the hospital), construction minestry, worship etc... I'll be able to give, recieve, learn, grow... while I'm surrounded by the beautiful amazone.. 

If you want to pray for me feel free to do it. Pray that I'll manage to go from Mexico to Guyana (so far I only have a ticket to mexico city), pray that God will send someone who wants to travel with me down in Brazil in January. And pray that God will send people in my way that I can share His love with!

May God our Father fill us with peace and joy as we sit down at His feet just to be in His presence.. Amen

All I need

How high are Your thoughts?
How deep is Your love?
How far are You able to reach?
How mighty are You?
How great is Your name?
How big are Your dreams for me?

How bright is Your light?
How real is Your touch?
How patient are You?
How long last your mercy?
How close can You get?
How meek is your heart?
How sweet is Your kiss?
How faithful are You above all?

You are higher
You are greater
You are better
You are brighter
You are sweeter
You are deeper
You are closer
You are more
You are

Let me long
Let me see
Let me hear
Let me feel
Let me understand
Let me touch
Let me breath
Let me know You, God
Let me know You, God
That’s all I need

surrender

I've never been so secure in Gods love than I am now. I've never known so much about Him, or experienced more of His goodness. I've never known so many truths about Christ and who I am in Him. His word has never been more alive for me than it is right now. I've never had more revelations about the Father, or heard His voice clearer. I've never trusted Him so fully or loved Him so deeply. Still I sometimes find myself thinking thoughts like; is God real? who am I? who is God? what happens if I just end my life today?
I know where theese thoughts come from. And as long as I want to follow Jesus with all I am, I will face resistance. If you're not bumping your head into the evil one, means you are running the same direction.. Jesus ask us to SURRENDER ALL TO HIM. So simple. So huge. So difficult. That is the biggest thing in life. and the thing the enemy are most afraid of. Because that will glorify God on earth. that will make a difference that will last forever.

I am greatest when I am on my knees, and have totally surrendered all to You my King.

Mae Ra Moe

It's raining like crazy. In front of us only deep clay. Surrounded by jungle. Oh, it's the road. The driver is optimistic. Faith can move mountains. Faith can digg a way with it's own hands into the refugee camp. Faith never gives up. We are wet into the bones. The ass hurts. But who cares, we are there. A lot of people. Happy people. I wonder what stories that are hiding behind the smiling eyes. We cross the river. Finally we can sit down on the bamboo floor. The smoke is intens, but it keeps away the huge crowds of mosquito. It's dark in the house made of bamboo, but we have some candles. The rain still falls on the roof made of leaves. He tells me his name. He is the same age as me. He used to live with his family in Karen state in Burma. He worked on the ricefields. But the Burmeese came. They burned down their village. They raped the girls. They killed his friends while he was watching. He speaks slowly. He and his family ran out in the jungle. They stayed there, hiding, for one year. They got sick. His sister died. They did'n have much food. They lived in fear. His smiling eyes covers the pain. It's ten years ago now. The rafugee camp has become his home. I can never understand. I can't even try to imagine the depth of the suffering that sorrounds me. But I can listen to this boy in front of me. I can cry some of his tears, and I can pray God to heal his broken heart.

the joy of the Lord is our strength

You don't know what real joy is before you walk the streets of Africa. Before you go to the orphanage, and find the children that has lost everything in this world. They are so small, and still they know how it is to be hungry, and don't have anything to eat. They know how painful it is to loose those you love the most. But in those little children you find faith. joy. dance. smiles. laughter. thanksgiving to God because He has given them life, and He has promised to go with them every day. You don't know what joy is before you see the smiling face of the young boy who couldn't walk because his feet was burnt, now playing football together with the other children. Hope. You don't know what joy is before you enter the church Sunday morning and find a nation that is singing and dancing for the Lord who is everything they need. A people that has understood a fundational truth, that THE JOY OF THE LORD IS OUR STRENGTH... May the Lord give our nation freedom to rejoice in Him! Amen